I know I've been slacking on the posts lately, its been a combination of not having motivation and being so busy with school that I don't have time! But I figured since last weekend I turned 30 that it was time for an update!
We've all read the posts women write freaking out about turning 30, and I'm not going to lie, I definitely had those moments. I look back at what I thought my life would be like at 30 and this is not what I had imagined. Younger Caley always thought she'd be married by now with a career and possibly kids. But as it happens, present Caley is unmarried, childless and currently back in university attempting to get another degree so she can actually get a decent paying job and support herself. It's not all sad sob stories though, I did accomplish quite a lot on my pre-thirties bucket list, and I've definitely done a whole lot more than I ever imagined. Those adventures and experiences have shaped who I am. I am not mature by any means, I still laugh at dirty words and I think like a kid most of the time, but I have begun to realize I am who I am and that's okay. I don't drink anymore and I don't feel the need to provide an excuse for why. I wake up early and I like it. I have zero desire to go to a club or to go partying anymore. I like tea, lots of it. I like staying home on my couch and cozying up to a movie. Do I still want to see the world and have adventures? Heck yes!! There are so many places to go and people to meet! But I am beginning to see the benefits of settling down, starting a life and supporting myself.
I am excited to be in my thirties now. I made a lot of mistakes in my twenties and learned from some of them(still waiting to learn those other lessons!) but I am pretty sure my thirties are going to be wayyy better!
I think the biggest thing I am learning as I grow up is that it's okay to do the things you want to do, and be the person you are. Am I super annoying in the early morning? You betcha! Am I antisocial and introverted sometimes? Absolutely! Am I overemotional and stressed out over ridiculous things often? Yup! Do I jump into things headfirst without considering the consequences? Yes ma'am! But those are just a few of the things that make me the person I am, and I am learning to love that person more and more everyday. There is only one me, love it or leave it.
