Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Finding new ways to destress!

Since this has been a hard month on my health I've had to find alternative ways to deal with my stress. I have always jumped into exercise when I was stressed but now that I'm having so many stomach issues, it is becoming harder and harder to work out.

Cue in cooking. I've been experimenting with lots of new paleo and low-FODMAPS recipes lately. I find it helps since I can keep busy in the evenings and relax while doing it.

Last night I tried making meatballs. Thy didn't turn out quit as I had hoped- I used too much egg so they didn't really stick together well but they still tasted delicious.

While I was making those I had apples roasting in the oven. I had my first go at homemade applesauce and might I say, DAMN!!! It was delicious!!! I didn't add anything but cinnamon and after cooking pulsed them in my blender for a few seconds. My new favorite treat!

Monday, October 22, 2012

A tough month

Well, after having finished my Whole30 project, things in my life seem to have taken a turn. I was very pleased with the way things went during the diet change. I felt better, have lost a ton of weight and was finally filled with energy again.

However, since then I have been having some issues with food allergies, and an inability to tolerate certain foods. This has started to manifest into something that I can see becoming very dangerous. Because of how terrible I have felt in the past few weeks I have become afraid to eat many foods and have also started developing a lot of guilty thoughts about what I am eating. I never used to be one to watch what I ate really, I tried to eat healthy but if I wanted to eat something I would. Since I have lost so much weight I look back at pictures of myself and shudder. How could I have let myself look like that? And even now, after losing 10lbs and fitting into clothes that haven't fit in years, I still find myself looking in the mirror and thinking, "I need to work harder, I can do better." These thoughts are not good, I know that much for sure. And they are terrifying. I am constantly in a fight with my brain over what I can eat and what I should eat. Over the weekend I indulged on three separate occasions.

First, I am lucky enough to have a wonderful boyfriend who is a chef, I LOVE his cooking. He is amazing at it. So this week he was making Pumpkins muffins at work, deciding that I could allow myself a treat, I asked him to save me one. So Friday night I had it and it was DELICIOUS!

Then on Saturday I went to the hash. We ran an awesome 12km trail. Afterwards there were lots of fresh veggies and fruit around for me to eat. However, there were also homemade chocolate cupcakes. So since I had run a lot I figured I could have one and it would be okay. So I did and went about the rest of my day eating my normal healthy foods.

Sunday came along and back to the hash I went, we went out for food afterwards and I, despite the desire I had for chicken strips, ordered a grilled chicken breast salad. Afterwards, when I was back home, I had to run some errands and went by Baskin Robbins, I thought, "Hrm I ate great all day, whats one scoop of ice cream going to do? " So I indulged yet again. And it's after that that the horrible thoughts started making their way into my brain. I immediately felt guilty for eating that and the other "treats" I had that weekend. How could I have worked so hard to get where I am and let myself down by eating that junk? I barely slept all night, having horrible nightmares and stressing out about food.

This morning I woke up and did my usual mirror check, have I gotten any skinnier?Nope, work harder Caley, I thought. I had my breakfast of two eggs, mushrooms, peppers and an apple, packed my bag for the gym and was off to work. My day at work on Monday is very boring, today has been slow and my thoughts are consumed by food and guilt. What should I eat, how can I make choices about food and remain healthy yet still be happy with the way I look? After eating my lunch of a grilled chicken salad and some pineapple chunks, I chatted with my boyfriend briefly. He voiced his concerns for the thoughts and feelings I've been having. It's not the first time he told me he is worried about the way I am looking at food and myself. But it is the first time I have realized he is possibly right. Before I thought, no way I could ever have an eating disorder, I love food too much, and its not like I'm starving myself. I still eat all three meals of the day. But now I see that it is a slow progression into something like that and it seems that I am on a possible track to that destination. So I am making the decision to research how I am feeling, I am looking into methods to stop feeling guilty about the food I eat. I am planning activities for the week that I know I will enjoy. I am attending a girls night on Thursday and then meeting some friends on Saturday morning for a mountain run. It's time I branch out and while my general instinct is to seclude myself from others and deal with things on my own. I am acutely aware that this is not a situation in which that is possible. I need to turn to other people to help me or I will drown in depression and unhappiness. I need to make a change in my life and I need to concentrate on my happiness. It starts today. New gym membership after work. I can do this.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

New favorite snack!

Tonight I was remembering that when we were kids my mom would make pancakes and sometimes fry some apples with cinnamon to go with them. I bought a bag of apples yesterday that are not the most delicious ones I've had so I decided to try a new snack. I fried them up with some cinnamon and mixed them with a tablespoon of coconut butter, simply delicious!!

Yesterday was my first day cheating and I went all out, had a diet coke, slice of pizza and a scoop of ice cream. It's crazy how fast the sugar hits you. Today, after not having cravings for weeks, all I could do was think about sweets and diet coke. Back to paleo today. I don't want these cravings so the sugar is got to go!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Whole30 complete!

Well, I made it!! Yesterday was my day 30! So here are my observations. It was not as hard as I thought I give up so many foods. After the initial two weeks of cravings- I rarely noticed that I wasn't eating things I used to.

My sleep patterns have definitely improved. I sleep much better and rarely wake up during the night now.

My energy levels are much higher than before. I am no longer tired in the afternoons at work.

My clothes fit better! I lost 8lbs and my body actually feels much better!

So overall, for me the diet was super helpful, I am going to do my best to stick as closely to paleo as possible , except today- today I'm going to allow myself to cheat a bit!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Dinner!

I am loving cooking on this new diet! Tonight I has pork, tomatoes, mushrooms, onions, peppers, and purple cabbage stir fried with olive oil, basil, oregano, and a little chili powder! Delicious!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Day 22!

Well it's day 22 already and things are going well! I feel great! My energy levels are definitely much higher than before. I'm no longer getting tired at work and I've been able to get up at 5:30 in the mornings to run!

I'm getting used to the foods and how to ensure I'm eating enough to sustain the endurance activities I'm doing.

I definitely feel better about my body image as well- I've definitely slimmed down, although I haven't weighed myself several people have commented on how I look like I've lost.

This next week should go by smoothly. I don't think I will be adding too many foods back into my diet- I am really happy with how I feel and I would like to continue to eat this was as much as possible!

Monday, September 17, 2012

Sweet potato chili!

I made a big batch yesterday! It's so delicious and easy to make!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Day 15-Half way there!

Well today is the start of day 15! It's been two weeks and I am feeling a difference for sure! Today is a gloomy one, there is a typhoon hitting so its windy and rainy! I woke up after a full nights sleep(yay!) and made breakfast. Getting ready for work, I hauled out my favorite pair of pants from last winter and to my surprise they are huge on me now! They are saggy and look so sloppy! I guess it's going to be shopping time in a few weeks!

Now to keep my energy up today, it's hard with all this rain! I will be heading to Crossfit after work tonight- tomorrow is the last day of my membership and I can't afford to ruin until next month so I will be taking a brief hiatus, so I need to get the most out of the last two workouts I have!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Day 13

Today is a tough one. I'm on the go and didn't pack snacks. In Korea it's difficult to find things so I'm surviving on bananas and nuts.

Was feeling good all week but feel like cheating today. Hope tomorrow us better.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Day 9-10

Well I had a great start to the week but things fizzled a bit since then. This week is the annual Harvest Jazz and Blues festival in Fredericton NB, it is one of the best times of year to be there! Sadly, this year I am missing it and I find myself homesick for the rocking good times. The Maritimes in the fall are a great place to be!

Whole30 wise I am still going strong- I am not longer hungry and have been able to fill myself up on proper meals. I have, however, started having weird food dreams. I have recurring dreams that I am cheating on the plan, even though in reality, I have not!

It's now Thursday and I've got to force myself to CrossFit even though all I feel like doing is sleeping! I am anxious for Friday to get here so I can head up to Paju to see Ben!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Day 8

My energy is back and it's awesome! Had a great day at work and then ran to crossfit had a great workout and then ran home!

Even had energy for a run to start off day 9!

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Day 7

Woke up bright and early this morning to meet up with my friend Katie and head out on our bikes. Hadn't seen her in awhile so it was nice to catch up. We got in a 65km ride with two mountain climbs-not bad since I haven't been biking much this summer.

Just made dinner- beef with peppers and mushrooms and carrot fries! Yum!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Day 6- feeling fine!!

Woke up feeling fantastic today! Lots of energy! Went to the run with the hash house harriers then hit the grocery store!

I made some paleo chili today! I found a recipe online and then just added in all kinds of extra veggies! Delicious!

Now relaxing and getting up early tomorrow for a long bike ride with a few friends!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Day 5!

Today I finally woke up with enough energy to go for a run! I bought some kiwis last night so I had one as a snack before the run. Ran a nice slow 5k and then made breakfast. I had a salad with chicken and oranges on top along with a cup of green tea.

So far this day is looking good. Hopefully my energy stays up and I can make it to crossfit tonight!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Day 4!

Woke up this morning feeling much better. Yesterday was a tough one- I felt tired and then my allergies kicked in so I was sneezing all day.

I did however, force myself to go stock up at Costco. I bought packs of chicken, pork, salmon, ground beef, and even found sugar free bacon for a treat! Now I should be set for meat for awhile.

Hopefully my energy stays up today. I've got to go deal with some phone issues tonight in Suji but I'm hoping I'll have enough energy to get a run in when I get home!

Had bacon, eggs and veggies with a peach for breakfast. Lunch of a chicken salad is packed and ready to go! Bring it on day 4!!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Day #3 off to a not so great start.

Today is not a good day. One of those days where I wish I had sick days so I could just stay in bed all day. Not sure if it's because of the diet change or that it's close to "that time of the month" but I am on an emotional roller coaster today.

My boyfriend and I got in a fight last night, mostly my fault- as I jumped down his throat for no reason. Usually we talk things out before we go to sleep but because we live 2 hours apart, that did not happen. Needless to say, I didn't sleep well last night.

I woke up this morning filled with emotions: worry, stress, anger, sadness, you name it. I am having some money issues and have had to budget a lot which means that this month when my CrossFit membership ends I won't be able to renew. So along with all those money troubles and having to cut activities out of my life that I thrive on, I am now worried about my relationship as well. I am consumed with thoughts of why I do the things I do, and why I can't just change for the person I love.

I have always been an emotional eater so I am trying my best to stay on the plan and not cheat. This mornings breakfast was pork, mushrooms, onions and a peach. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 2- dinner

First attempt at sweet potato fries=okay, burnt a bit but still delicious

Had them with shrimp and veggies.

Skipped Crossfit tonight, might attempt a run in the morning.

Day 2-tired...

Well, I made it through day one successfully. After work, headed to CrossFit and had an awesome workout. Even stayed after to do a little extra rowing with a friend.

I woke up this morning feeling great! I had slept through most of the night, only waking up once and I felt like I had alot of energy.

For breakfast I had : Steak and eggs grilled with mushrooms and tomatoes, an apple, green tea

Off to work I went feeling like it was going to be a good day. By about 11am, my energy was completely gone and I exhaustion set in.

For lunch I had lettuce wraps with chicken and sprouts, veggies(carrots, cucumber, green pepper) and some pineapple.

Just finished lunch and my energy hasn't gotten any better. I feel like all I can do is crawl into bed and sleep. Luckily only 2 classes to teach today. I am going to try to drag myself to CrossFit tonight, hopefully that will help with my energy levels!

Monday, September 3, 2012

Day 1: A new way of eating

It has been awhile since my last post, while I have been busy, I haven't found the motivation to write about any of those experiences.

Recently, I have been doing a lot of reading on the Paleo diet. Back in June, I started going to CrossFit in Bundang. For years now, my workout friends back home have been raving about CrossFit and the Paleo diet. So after starting CrossFit and immediately becoming addicted, I decided I needed to look into my eating habits.

Now, anyone who knows me at all can tell you I have a bit of a sweet tooth. I have researched and read about eating healthy for years now, but despite all of my knowledge, I continued to indulge in my daily Diet Coke and sugar cravings. When initially reading about the Paleo diet, I was worried about getting enough carbs. As an endurance runner and cyclist, I have always had a pre-workout meal involving lots of carbs to give me energy. But after a few months of hard training and not noticing any differences in my body. I decided it is time to step it up and go cold turkey.

Cue in the Whole30 plan. http://whole9life.com/2012/08/the-whole30-program/

I stumbled upon this website on a friends facebook page and have been reading into it for a week now. As with any change in your diet, there are conflicting opinions on whether it is "healthy" or not. I am not claiming it is the healthiest way of eating, but for me it seems to be an option I should consider.

So today is my day 1 of the whole30. After looking through the forums on their site, I have read that my first 15 days will be the hardest. My body has become accustom to the daily doses of sugar. Today I have begun only eating natural foods. Basically I can eat meat, seafood, veggies, fruit and most nuts/seeds. It is not far off from how I usually eat, however I will be cutting out a few favorites, mainly hummus and yogurt.

I am hoping this change will help me in more ways than just dropping a few extra pounds. From research, I have found that many people who completed the diet noticed a major change in their sleeping habits. I have not been sleeping well for the past year or so and I am hoping that this will help that.

So my overall goals for this 30 days are :
-gain more energy
-regulate sleeping patterns
-drink more water
-consciously monitor what I am eating
-feel better overall
-have my clothes fit better


I will try to document my 30 days to the best of my ability so that others who may be interested can have an idea of how it may affect them.

How I'm feeling today: Well it is midday, about 3pm and while I am slightly hungry, I think this has more to do with boredom and habit rather than actual hunger, I am feeling pretty good. I had beef and mushrooms with a peach for breakfast. For lunch I had lettuce wraps with beef and sprouts, a handful of walnuts and some pineapple. I am about to eat an apple for snack and I'll have chicken and veggies for dinner. The only thing that was weird was waking up this morning and not having my daily protein smoothie, instead I had green tea. I will head to CrossFit after work tonight so hopefully my energy levels stay up for that!


Wednesday, May 23, 2012

A day of epic proportions

The Great Wall Marathon. I have been looking forward to setting foot on the Great Wall for years now. Finally this year I had the opportunity to sign up for the marathon with some friends from the Seoul Flyers. Since January I have been been anticipating the weekend of May 18th. My boss was kind enough to give me the afternoon off work so I could make the flight to Beijing.

Friday morning arrived and I could barely contain my excitement. I had to make it through two classes and lunch time and then I was free. I hopped on the airport bus from Sunae and throughout the hour it took to get to Incheon Airport, I sat with excitement and anticipation. And a little fear. I was about to run a half marathon on one of the toughest courses around. Was I ready? Could I handle it? I may not be in top physical form but I am competitive and don't like to give up, so I figured no matter how hard it was, I would push on anyway.

We arrived at our hotel in Beijing at around 9:30pm Friday night. We had to be up and on a bus at 3:30 am to head to the race site. Needless to say, I didn't get a lot of sleep that night. So bright and early we boarded the bus with our "breakfast boxes" and were on our way. Now, theses so called breakfast boxes contained a bottle of water, a "sandwich" -white bread with one slice of ham, and a snack size kit kat bar. Not the fantastic breakfast I was hoping for. I had nothing else with me so I had no choice but to eat all of it, I would need it for the race.

After drifting off to sleep for an hour or so, we finally arrived in the village of Tianjin. Everyone on the bus was bustling with excitement. We got off the bus and set off to find our race packages. Turns out there was a mix up because of our late arrival to the hotel and our packages were back in Beijing. However, they got us all new numbers and we were set to go. We said goodbye to the few from our group attempting the full marathon, they were off!



After a few minutes, it was our turn to start. I was filled with nerves but pumped to get out there! The course started through the village and began going up a windy road for about 5km before we got to the entrance to the wall. We lucked out and met up with the girls from our group in the corral before us so we were able to enjoy the wall together. Because we were back in the 3rd corral, we had to wait a lot on the wall.


There were parts of the wall that were single track with only one side so you had to go single file and it forced a bunch of people to wait. 





After the portion on the wall the course continued down through the village. We were on the wall together as a group but once we got off we kind of separated. Once off the wall I saw a sign saying we had only gone 8k so far! At this point we were over 2 hours in! I was tired but not as much as I had thought. Since we had to wait a lot the wall didn't seem as hard as it could have been. I tried my best to run the rest of the race without taking and breaks. It was insanely hot, I was sweating profusely. There were plenty of water stations but not a lot of sustenance other than that. A few stations had bananas as well. I was dumb and each time I passed one thought, oh you're okay, you don't need one. Big mistake on my part! The course went all through the dirt roads of the village, once I got to about 15km I was dead. Tired and could barely keep my feet moving. 





I walked a few portions and then kept up jogging. Through the village there were lots of locals standing on the side watching and cheering us on. There were tons of little kids screaming hello and giving high fives! It was really amazing to see all of them being supportive!


I kept pushing on and finally made it to the finish with a time of 3:55. It was a tough, long day, but incredibly worth it!! I am in awe of the people who did the full distance. I can't imagine having to go back up that wall again in the heat. It was a struggle to do it the first time, twice would have killed me! 




I am so glad I was able to get the opportunity to go to this race. It was amazing to be able to even step foot on the Great Wall, let alone run a half marathon on it. And while it was amazing and filled with views I will not soon forget, I actually enjoyed running through the village more. It was awesome to be able to see how these people live and to be, if only for a small second, part of their community. It's always an eye-opening experience to be a part of another culture, and for me it really hits home every time I do. It forces you to see the world through someone else's eyes and makes you incredibly thankful for the things you have and are able to experience. Running through the village and seeing the faces on those children was one of those times, I am a lucky girl to have the opportunity to experience these things. 

Another goal checked off the list!! Now what to tackle next?! 



Monday, May 7, 2012

Just another Friday night in Korea

May 4, 2012- The day had finally arrived. I had been awaiting this day for a few weeks now and was anticipating the events of the evening. For awhile now I had been wanting a tattoo, but I was having a hard time figuring out what I wanted and where I wanted it. A couple of weeks ago I finally figured out that I wanted to have "run" tattooed on my wrist. Why you ask? Well, being slightly neurotic and a tad on the emotional side, running has been one of the only releases that I have been able to use. Every time I run, I bring myself back to reality. If I am having a bad day at work, a run makes it all better. If I am feeling down about myself, a run perks me up. If men troubles are making me sad, a run empowers me. So I played around with some fonts and finally found one that I liked. I like the fact that it will be on my wrist so I can use it as motivation when I am feeling lazy.

I went to Tattoo Korea with a few a month ago and had them look at it and give me a price. I had to wait to get paid so I put down the deposit and made my appointment, no going back now.

So Friday night finally had arrived and I met up with my friend Kat who was coming along for moral support. I was excited and nervous. I am not the best when it comes to needles. I normally have to get them to allow me to lay down just to have a blood test, so I was very nervous. Not only that, but many people had told me that the inner wrist is a very painful spot to have a tattoo.

Despite their warnings and my fears, I was in the tattoo parlour on Friday night ready to go, albeit, very very nervous. I lay down on the table and he asked me if I was ready. I guess so. The first bit of pain wasn't too bad. Kat was entertaining by my various faces and the amount of swearing I was doing.


I didn't want to look at it while he was doing it so I wouldn't know how much was left. At times it was really painful, and felt like someone was burning a hole through my arm. At other points, it barely tickled.


After about a half hour, it was done. Not too bad! I had managed to conquer yet another fear and didn't pass out(I was really worried about this!)


I'm really happy with how it looks! Glad I sucked up my fears and did it! 

Stay tuned for my next goal: Great Wall Marathon in China in two weeks!! 


Saturday, April 14, 2012

Fitness, fitness, fitness


Well, well. It seems it has been a long time since my last post. It is now 2012, obviously, and things are going great in my little neighborhood of Sunae-dong.

Today is a gorgeous day, 21C and sunny! This morning I ventured out bright and early with my friend Leann to run in the Bundang Gumpu Marathon.  I had signed up for this weeks ago and had planned on training and being in proper race form. However, I have kind of slacked off and haven’t even run in the past few weeks. So needless to say, I was nervous as all hell. 21km is really, really far!!! I didn’t know if I could do it or if my legs would keep going. But I committed and finished a half marathon is a goal on my list, so I had to try. For motivation I wrote “keep going” on my for arm so if I was feeling like stopping I could just look down and see it. My goal for this race was just to finish. Ideally I was hoping for around 2 hr 30 mins, but ultimately if I finished I would be pleased.



When the race began I was feeling good, I kept telling myself that if I needed to walk I could do so at the 10km mark. When the 10km mark came, I was feeling some pain in my IT band(I have been having a lot of problems with it lately) and I needed to pee, so I made a quick stop at the washroom and continued on my way.  No walking, I kept telling myself. I will finish this race and run the whole way. It was tough, sometimes I felt like I was going at a snail’s pace. But no matter what, I kept running. Soon came the 15km mark and I realized, “oh my god, I can actually finish this! 6km left, that’s nothing!” Not wanting to use up all my energy, I kept my slow pace going. At 18km, both my legs were in a lot of pain, but I had only 3kms left to go!! I was going to make it!!!  Once I saw the 20km sign a giant smile came across my face! Here I was, 1km left from finishing my first half marathon!  I stepped up the pace and suddenly felt like I had a second wind. As I sprinted into the finish line, my friends were there cheering me on and I looked at the time, 2:20!!! I had made it! And beat my goal time by 10 mins! Its hours later now and I still can’t wipe the smile off my face! I ran the entire race and finished with an acceptable time for a first timer! I can only think, about how much better I could be if I really pushed myself into training!  This feeling, the runner’s high, is why I run, why I push myself to do things I don’t think I can. It’s a feeling I can’t get anywhere else.



I have been in a bit of a funk lately. A lot of my good friends have recently left Korea for new adventures and I spent the last week getting over some nasty food poisoning. Today was just the thing I needed to propel myself out of this hole and back into life! 

Last weekend, I hit the pavement on my bike with my friend and fellow cyclist, Jared. We headed up to Gangchon for the weekend for our friends, Suzie and Ski’s, going away weekend. It was my first weekend on the bike this year and I had a blast. Jared is known for taking the most mountaineous routes he can find while cycling, so I knew I was in for a hard ride. Saturday the weather was great and we tackled a handful of climbs. I was spent!! But being back on the bike felt awesome! Once in Gangchon we met up with the rest of our friends and had some delicious dak galbi dinner(or so I thought, more on this later) Jared and I retired early since we had another big day of riding the next day, while the rest of the crew drank and partied the night away.

Sunday morning came quickly and soon we were on the road. Our route for the day was supposed to be much easier than Saturdays so I was not too worried. Boy were we wrong. Sunday brought on some crazy strong head winds. For the better part of the day, we were cycling into 35km/hr winds. The winds were exhausting and no matter where we turned we couldn’t get away from them. Sunday was a grueling day, there were times when I didn’t think I could go on, but what was I supposed to do? Walk home? So I peddled on and we finally made it all the way home. Back at my place I was pleased I had finally finished a two day ride in the mountains! I was feeling great, until about 9pm.

All of a sudden I was running to the bathroom and vomiting my guts out. This was the beginning of one of the worst nights of my life. I spent the night running back and forth between the bathroom and my bed. I was burning up and spewing from everywhere. I couldn’t believe how sick and miserable I was. When morning came I immediately called my boss and told her I couldn’t come in. I was dehydrated and barely able to move. I couldn’t even keep down water. After awhile, I found out from Jared that he was sick as well. Food poisoning he said. So we figured it must have been something we both ate. Through out the day we found out a few others from the group were sick as well and concluded it must have been the dak galbi we had all eaten.  So what was an awesome weekend of riding was capped off by the worst night I have ever had. Oh well, I am thankful it didn’t happen while we were still on the road, that would have been terrible.

This has been and eventful few months in my life and I am sure the next few will be even more so. On the schedule for next month is another goal from my list, The Great Wall Marathon in China. I am very, very, VERY excited about this one! Not only is it an adventure marathon, but I get to do it on the Great Wall!! How awesome is that?! After that I’ll have about 4 months left here in Korea before I head home to Canada to yet another new city. I will be calling Ottawa my home in October and will hopefully be attending university there in the fall of 2013. 

Until next time, run on!